FUUUUUUUCKkkkkkkkkkk

why do I always fall for girls that dont love me...
For the first time in my life I am actually questioning whether its possible for someone to love me.
I feel so torn inside. Why when I am given the choice of the girl or being an honorable man do I always take the honorable side? Fuck me.

:(

I think I love her

Ive got it bad

Since that day my thoughts keep finding their way to her...
My arms yearn to hold her again...
I want to passionately embrace her lips with mine, but these are just my feelings. My head tells me no. Its wrong, I know it is. My conscience is struggling with how I feel and what I know to be true... This feeling will pass, its just a bitch in the mean time.

D'OH!

...you know... I saw this coming months ago... I tried to stop it, I cant even remember how it happened. I should have been able to stop it, I was not strong enough this time. This was one of those things where all signs say use your head. It wasnt even someone else trying to tell me, I was trying to tell myself. But of course I went and fucked up... well you live and learn... Ive learned that common sense is easy to pass to the wind when ones emotions are involved. When I see it happen in the future to me or someone else I will try to be stronger but also accepting of how hard it is to ignore for those who have not yet learned this lesson.