Thursday, August 27, 2009
Charlotte
I woke up hugging my/her pillow. It still smells like her, I clutched it feeling for her heartbeat but I felt only my own. My bed isnt right with out her there. I need so very much to hold her in my arms right now. I need her. I love her.
Heartstrings
For the last few days my heart has been feeling its strings tugged on. Ive never missed anyone so much. And now that I will get to see her tomorrow I feel like my heart is being pulled in her direction. Every minute that goes by is another small step towards seeing her again. I cant wait <3
Wednesday, August 26, 2009
People who hate people
On the subject of people who hate other people for various reasons.
S: In 50 years people will look back on all this hatred towards gay people the same way they look at the racism of the 60s.
Me: Yeah probably.
S: Do you think people will ever run out of reasons to hate each other?
Me: No, people will make up new reasons to hate each other. By 2030 people will hate other people for wearing black on Tuesdays.
S: If that becomes a reality Ill kill myself.
We had a good laugh. Sometimes that's the best thing to do when analyzing humanity.
S: In 50 years people will look back on all this hatred towards gay people the same way they look at the racism of the 60s.
Me: Yeah probably.
S: Do you think people will ever run out of reasons to hate each other?
Me: No, people will make up new reasons to hate each other. By 2030 people will hate other people for wearing black on Tuesdays.
S: If that becomes a reality Ill kill myself.
We had a good laugh. Sometimes that's the best thing to do when analyzing humanity.
Tuesday, August 25, 2009
Dream 8-25-09
I fell asleep today around 3 or 4 oclock.
In my dream a woman appears and toss a paper plane at me. I catch it but its not a paper plane. Its a paper bird (origami) with a long wavy tail. The bird looks like a phoenix. The woman says "everything's going to be alright" Then I woke up.
I dont know if a dream like this is a prophetic message from the universe or my subconscious projecting what it wants.
In my dream a woman appears and toss a paper plane at me. I catch it but its not a paper plane. Its a paper bird (origami) with a long wavy tail. The bird looks like a phoenix. The woman says "everything's going to be alright" Then I woke up.
I dont know if a dream like this is a prophetic message from the universe or my subconscious projecting what it wants.
Friday, August 7, 2009
A thorn by any other name
In medieval times guards were placed on the roads to protect the people from thieves, now the guards have become the thieves.
Tuesday, August 4, 2009
Its never enough
I pick her up from work but then I have to work.
I have her all Monday but we have D&D at 6:30 and she wont wake up before noon. If we dont get up and involve Sean in something then we are ignoring him and being bad friends.
Then I wake up early to drop her off to go see her friends.
We only get to have time alone together for about 4 hours A WEEK and we spend that time watching Buffy. Its not enough. God... its just never enough. :(
I have her all Monday but we have D&D at 6:30 and she wont wake up before noon. If we dont get up and involve Sean in something then we are ignoring him and being bad friends.
Then I wake up early to drop her off to go see her friends.
We only get to have time alone together for about 4 hours A WEEK and we spend that time watching Buffy. Its not enough. God... its just never enough. :(
Saturday, August 1, 2009
My mind has gone to bad places
I dont know what it is. Im worried. Im scared. Im afraid. My mind has gone to bad places tonight. Please, Please dont let it be.
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