I told myself not to do it

I told myself not to do it... that it wouldnt end well.
I did it anyway. Those eyes pierce through my heart even after so long.
I honest to god loved her. I find it funny sometimes how something can
seem so right and so beautiful so perfect, and then when you least expect it,
it all goes to hell.
Shes married and has a child now.
I miss having a female friend, I miss having an intelligent virtuous female friend.
I miss you Ally. Even if you did tear out my heart because your parents didnt like me.
You were one of the best things to ever happen to me.
Life goes on, and so must I. I can not focus on these things for too long. I am a different
person now.