Whats Dave Doing?

Its been a while since my last post so I figured I would write a little something to catch people up on my comings and goings.

Things have really settled into place here at tam and jenells. It looks like they are going to let me stay here for as long as it works for everyone. They arent even going to require me to give them rent. I do still want to give them money or food or something.

I got a job working as a secret shopper for a certain chain store, I cant say which or it would compromise my identity. The pay is good and I get to more or less decide when I work. Unfortunately due to the snow I havent been able to get out to any stores.

This winter is very different from previous ones. Im used to bad things happening during the holidays, parents having strokes or girlfriend breaking up with me, or relatives getting divorced. And in one sense it still happened with a friend of mine that I directly tried to talk to. She gave me the cold shoulder, and to think she was going to let me front the bill for mewcon without telling me everyone else had already jumped ship, bitch.. oh well. I guess the image I had of her is gone now and I see her as she really is.

But more importantly this winter has been a time of forgiveness and rebuilding broken bonds and bridges. Mark came back to our circle of friends after his crazy wife flipped out on him and took him for all he was worth. Poor guy was blinded by love. I guess its the natural way of things for nice guys like him to get hurt this way. We had a lan party for him. We all gave him a big welcome back hug. Its good to have him back.

I made note to myself a long time ago that I had turned over a new leaf and that it was time I let the rest of the world do the same. I had finally accepted I needed to forgive ricky. So I finally did. We are talking again as brothers. Im glad to have him back in my life too.

Ultimately Ive lost a very important friend to me, but I have gained a brother, a comrade, two new housemates that are really great people, a job, and life seems to be steadying itself. I know this wont last forever, but I am really enjoying things right now. Now Im just missing a girl, but that will find its own course.

Second chances again

I finally realized why it bothers me so much to watch some people make foolish mistakes... its the parent factor. Parents deal with this kind of stuff. When their kids are growing up they make decisions that someone more experienced see's and wants to stop... but Ive always said that parents need to learn when its time to let their children make mistakes and fuck up their lives. Its easy to say that. But I am feeling the same way they do now.

I will learn from this so I dont have this problem when I am actually a parent.

Energy, Spirituality, Awareness

This is so weird. Im just sitting here thinking. Then I suddenly became aware that the meridian lines between my 4-7 chakras were all active and flowing between them, but why not the first three?

Its Official

Im a Magnum! Take that tall people! Im bigger where it counts >:^P

second chances

I have realized some things. There are somethings in life you have to learn for yourself I guess. No amount of wisdom from the worlds greatest teachers can reach into the hearts, minds, eyes, ears, tongues, and hands of people who have let the blind lead the blind, the twisted teach the innocent, and the forked tongues speak for the mute.

There has always been a redeeming thing about humans that I have found myself completely in love with but lately Ive felt an uneasy grip creep up my spine. That not all the people in the world give a damn. Ive been so lucky to know so many caring and loving people. I have very rarely found myself caring about people who dont give a damn. I think now that I have seen their true colors its time to let them destroy themselves from the inside out until they come to see themselves for who they have become.

I however will never stop caring for them. Sometimes it hurts more to hope, it hurts more to care, but you can never let yourself stop caring. I believe people can change their lives if they want to, I believe in second chances.

O Rly?

Today was totally hellish. The final stages of moving out are done for me, though there is going to be a fight between jordan and sean Im sure. It may turn into a throw down... Ill have to step in and stop it. I have my japanese written final tomorrow and I havent done any studying this weekend at all due to the move. But enough of all the bad shit today. There is something more important...

I was listening to 105.1 the buzz today while going to pick up matt. You can all thank Daria for this one. According to a recent study, of all the europian peoples the french have the biggest penis' and the greeks have the smallest. On average the french man has a 6-6.5" penis. They didnt go into detail about the width. This frankly amazes me. Only one girl has ever seen mine and she said it was big but I just thought she was being nice. I remember back when I used to use condoms, they were always really fucking tight for me. I was curious so I went to wikipedia and looked up magnum condoms http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Magnum_(condom)
I have never tried one on myself but if their measurements are right then I should be somewhere between the magnum and magnum xl.

Nothing like an ego boost to brighten your day.