Uh Oh

Im thinking with my Penis again...

...I think Im going to see where this takes me...

Text messages:

Her: First off Im wondering just how rough and kinky you are

Me: You'll just have to find out the hard way ;)

Her: Smooth

Me: I thought so

Good Karma

Today was one of those days where I really felt like good karma was flowing my way.

I guess it all started out with me waking up from a dream where I was getting married. Ive never had a marriage dream before but it was nice while it lasted, I only remember being really really happy. :)

I woke up just in time to get a nice shower in before class. I got a text from Coley saying she had strep throat and to tell the teacher she wasnt coming in today. I was glad to hear from her if even the bad tidings it meant that I hadnt upset her too much. I drove in to school and found a free parking spot! Score! Writing class was relatively short. I wrote up a fastwrite on clinton park.

At the end of class the really beautiful green eyed brunette girl made a comment about how she had an hour or two after this class and that is sucked. I told her that I missed having that time in between classes. I explained that I only had 10 minutes between this class and the next and that I missed being able to just grab random people and hang out or go have lunch. She thought that was kind of interesting I guess. I headed out towards the smith building and she followed me. I think she was headed that way anyway. She caught up to me buy the skyway and said that if I didnt have class right away she would have lunch with me. I told her that we got out of class early so I actually had about an hour right then. So we went and got lunch. We found our way to a cafe like place across the street from the food carts. She got a chicken ceasar salad. I got a turkey and avacado with cream cheese sandwich. We had some fun conversation. I dont want to go into her life details on my blog so Ill just skip to the end. Eventually she had to get to a meeting with our teacher and I had to get to my next class so we went our separate ways.

It was strange. I was in class and I couldnt focus very well at all. Its not unlike me to be attracted to a beautiful girl in the past, its not unlike me to be able to just enjoy their conversation and go on with my life. But for some reason I couldnt stop thinking about her eyes. They are the most beautiful green eyes I have ever seen in my life.

She is currently living with her boyfriend and his best friend :(

Damn. Figures. Its no secret to me that Id like to see where a relationship with her would go. All that aside Im fine just being friends with her. I can appreciate sharing conversation over a meal with an interesting stranger.

After class got out I headed over to alex's. We got some vodka and some brandy. Picked up zaamen. Had max and sam come over and by the end of the night we were playing rock band 2/Beatles.

I got home and talked with sean some. We made ramen and watched a blazer game. From there I talked with a friend online about future school classes. And now its late and time for bed.

Good Times

Kenny and Sarah finally moved into their own place together in an apartment not terribly far from my place. They had a house warming party! A bunch of us got pretty drunk. We all got really cuddly on the couch. I gave megan and alex shoulder rubs. Both of which said it was pretty freakn amazing. I think alex said my hands were the best thing to ever happen to her. My secret is I close my eyes when I do it, then by passing energy between my hands and their shoulders I am able to better relax them and more easily discover the stress points. After the party there we all went to Lee's friend Robin's birthday over at the commodore. She's apparently 31 but she looks 23. I told her that. She kissed me. Oh yeah. Got a few looks from the girls about the bar, I guess I was looking pretty good that night. Played a game or two of pool. Im not half bad while stumbling drunk. We decided to go to the Roxy to get our OM NOMs on. Then back to the Commodore to give our best wishes to Robin. This time I got to give her the kiss, I think it was better because I was expecting it this time. Too bad we had to go, I might not have stopped with just one... but we were drunk and didnt know each other so its probably a good thing that I had to leave. From there everyone crashed at Sam/Alex's place. Good Times. :D

A quarter life crisis?

I want to ride the slip in slide

I want to read comic books

I want to spend all day at an arcade

I want to eat pizza and drink root beer

I want to TP and egg a house

I want to get in backyard fights with the neighborhood bully

I want my childhood

I want to play D&D

I want to play airsoft

I want to go to late night bistro's

I want to go to concerts

I want to get wasted

I want my summer time

I want to be successful in school

I want to have a good girlfriend

I want to be focused and motivated

I know where Im going. I know what I want to do with my life...

But I cant help feeling like Ive missed so much of it already.

I cant just pick up where Im at and ignore what Ive missed...

I want those experiences...

But right now I am running myself ragged working late hours, constantly fighting to make rent, not sure how my classes are coming along. I need a vacation, I need to have fun. But I cant afford that in money or time. :(

A strange day

I woke up at 9:30, got online started chatting with tam. He and Jenell were going to go shopping so I headed over to their place. Went to Washington Square Mall, Costco and a cool little Indian deli place. Immediately headed out to work. It was Salem this time. Stung all the stores. No Fails. :D, the last girl I stung was kind of flirty, which was cool I needed the confidence boost. Went to turn in paperwork. Apparently there was a wreck on I-84 east bound, I got stuck in some really nasty traffic but I was still on the clock so it was OK. While in traffic this cute blond in the backseat of a car next to me yells out "Hey!" I had my window down and was listening to music. I Figured she was drunk or something so I just drove past, but then traffic slowed my lane and sped theirs and we were next to each other again. I looked over... heres the conversation we had.

CB: "Hey!"

Me: "What?"

CB: "What are you doing?"

Me: "Getting off work."

CB: "Where do you work?"

Me: "I work for the OLCC."

CB: "My friend in front of me thinks your cute, he really wants your number"

I look over

Me: "Thanks, but I dont eat on that side of the buffet"

CB: "What side is that?"

Me: "I dont eat meat."

At that point there was significant room ahead of me so I drove off. Thinking back on it, I should have given them my number and when he called me Id just tell him sorry but I was into his cute friend in the back seat. Oh well, Ill save that idea for next time.

I got my paper work turned in and headed to PSU for our Mithril team meeting. There is just something awesome about having a radio personality on the team that makes everything we do amazing.... except that now we have two.... making everything even more hilarious!

The drive coming back home was a lot of fun, I really slammed on the gas. I was feeling kind of daring in a sort of "well why the fuck not" sort of way so I drove the majority of the way home using only my peripheral vision while focusing almost entirely on my rear view mirror. Terrible idea btw... but it was fun, so why the fuck not?

Fin

EDIT: Forgot to mention that at the team meeting I was officially declared the Team Medic AND the Team Gestapo.

A small step back

I saw some workers putting up the Christmas tree in the square today.

Im so tired of spending the holidays alone. Im so tired of going to get togethers of friends because I dont want to deal with my family. Even at friends get togethers Im surrounded by couples or married people. Its just thrown in my face every year.

Just once, I want to have someone to hold for Christmas. Thats the only Christmas gift I want.

:*(