Almost stepped in it

Below is a conversation I had with a very over protective parent. I saw the conversation going down hill quickly so I kept it respectful... close call though. Im just glad Im the one dealing with this, not everyone would be as reasonable.

David Sherman
3:16
hey, ---
is ------ phone number xxx-xxx-xxxx?
3:34---- came back

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3:59
hey
no its not, Im waiting for a call back from him now

David Sherman
3:59
hey

------
3:59
hes at work I think today

David Sherman
3:59
can you just give me his phone number so I can call him directly. It will speed things up in the future

------
4:00
Hes only 17, we dont give his number out sorry
IM not really sure why your waiting on one vote, its pretty overwhelming isnt it?

David Sherman
4:00
...ok, I can respect that. However I will ask him for his number personally next time I see him.

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4:01
sure, bypass his Dad, great idea

David Sherman
4:01
Thats not my intention... is he allowed to give out his own number? If hes not then I wont ask him
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4:02
His mother and I prefer that his number is not passed out. That is how its been since he was 15 and got his phone
I'll ask her if she minds

David Sherman
4:04
fair enough. As for the one vote thing. Its our policy to make sure that everyone wants the new person on the team. An all or nothing system. It keeps the team involved and in good step with each other on and off the field.
4:04You have connected

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4:07
alrighty, Ill let you know as soon as he gets ahold of me.

David Sherman
4:08
Ok, Ill be waiting for your update.
4:09----- disconnected

The Universe has a sense of humor... and it reads Douglas Adams

You know that monopoly community chest card? The one that says "Bank error in your favor, collect $x"? Well I got one of those in the mail today. Apparently when I closed my account with US Bank there was still some money in it, so they sent it to me in a check... for exactly $42.00

My Post Secret

I keep a pile of clothes next to me when I go to bed, because I cant bare the feeling of sleeping alone anymore.

White Magic

I grew up watching the sword in the stone, the jungle book, the lion king and so many others....

Ive known for a long time now that the world I live in is not what I wanted it to be when I grew up...

The women are all shrewish princesses or fucked up in the head Alice's lost in their wonderlands.

The men are more predators than princes or knights.

Sometimes its nice to watch those old movies or listen to the music in them and slip back into a long lost childhood where the world was simpler, an innocent world where good was good and evil was evil. This world is too busy. Pass the bong, let me take a hit, play some pogo and let me slip away into the kaleidescope. I just want somewhere else to go.

Uh Oh

Im thinking with my Penis again...

...I think Im going to see where this takes me...

Text messages:

Her: First off Im wondering just how rough and kinky you are

Me: You'll just have to find out the hard way ;)

Her: Smooth

Me: I thought so

Good Karma

Today was one of those days where I really felt like good karma was flowing my way.

I guess it all started out with me waking up from a dream where I was getting married. Ive never had a marriage dream before but it was nice while it lasted, I only remember being really really happy. :)

I woke up just in time to get a nice shower in before class. I got a text from Coley saying she had strep throat and to tell the teacher she wasnt coming in today. I was glad to hear from her if even the bad tidings it meant that I hadnt upset her too much. I drove in to school and found a free parking spot! Score! Writing class was relatively short. I wrote up a fastwrite on clinton park.

At the end of class the really beautiful green eyed brunette girl made a comment about how she had an hour or two after this class and that is sucked. I told her that I missed having that time in between classes. I explained that I only had 10 minutes between this class and the next and that I missed being able to just grab random people and hang out or go have lunch. She thought that was kind of interesting I guess. I headed out towards the smith building and she followed me. I think she was headed that way anyway. She caught up to me buy the skyway and said that if I didnt have class right away she would have lunch with me. I told her that we got out of class early so I actually had about an hour right then. So we went and got lunch. We found our way to a cafe like place across the street from the food carts. She got a chicken ceasar salad. I got a turkey and avacado with cream cheese sandwich. We had some fun conversation. I dont want to go into her life details on my blog so Ill just skip to the end. Eventually she had to get to a meeting with our teacher and I had to get to my next class so we went our separate ways.

It was strange. I was in class and I couldnt focus very well at all. Its not unlike me to be attracted to a beautiful girl in the past, its not unlike me to be able to just enjoy their conversation and go on with my life. But for some reason I couldnt stop thinking about her eyes. They are the most beautiful green eyes I have ever seen in my life.

She is currently living with her boyfriend and his best friend :(

Damn. Figures. Its no secret to me that Id like to see where a relationship with her would go. All that aside Im fine just being friends with her. I can appreciate sharing conversation over a meal with an interesting stranger.

After class got out I headed over to alex's. We got some vodka and some brandy. Picked up zaamen. Had max and sam come over and by the end of the night we were playing rock band 2/Beatles.

I got home and talked with sean some. We made ramen and watched a blazer game. From there I talked with a friend online about future school classes. And now its late and time for bed.

Good Times

Kenny and Sarah finally moved into their own place together in an apartment not terribly far from my place. They had a house warming party! A bunch of us got pretty drunk. We all got really cuddly on the couch. I gave megan and alex shoulder rubs. Both of which said it was pretty freakn amazing. I think alex said my hands were the best thing to ever happen to her. My secret is I close my eyes when I do it, then by passing energy between my hands and their shoulders I am able to better relax them and more easily discover the stress points. After the party there we all went to Lee's friend Robin's birthday over at the commodore. She's apparently 31 but she looks 23. I told her that. She kissed me. Oh yeah. Got a few looks from the girls about the bar, I guess I was looking pretty good that night. Played a game or two of pool. Im not half bad while stumbling drunk. We decided to go to the Roxy to get our OM NOMs on. Then back to the Commodore to give our best wishes to Robin. This time I got to give her the kiss, I think it was better because I was expecting it this time. Too bad we had to go, I might not have stopped with just one... but we were drunk and didnt know each other so its probably a good thing that I had to leave. From there everyone crashed at Sam/Alex's place. Good Times. :D

A quarter life crisis?

I want to ride the slip in slide

I want to read comic books

I want to spend all day at an arcade

I want to eat pizza and drink root beer

I want to TP and egg a house

I want to get in backyard fights with the neighborhood bully

I want my childhood

I want to play D&D

I want to play airsoft

I want to go to late night bistro's

I want to go to concerts

I want to get wasted

I want my summer time

I want to be successful in school

I want to have a good girlfriend

I want to be focused and motivated

I know where Im going. I know what I want to do with my life...

But I cant help feeling like Ive missed so much of it already.

I cant just pick up where Im at and ignore what Ive missed...

I want those experiences...

But right now I am running myself ragged working late hours, constantly fighting to make rent, not sure how my classes are coming along. I need a vacation, I need to have fun. But I cant afford that in money or time. :(

A strange day

I woke up at 9:30, got online started chatting with tam. He and Jenell were going to go shopping so I headed over to their place. Went to Washington Square Mall, Costco and a cool little Indian deli place. Immediately headed out to work. It was Salem this time. Stung all the stores. No Fails. :D, the last girl I stung was kind of flirty, which was cool I needed the confidence boost. Went to turn in paperwork. Apparently there was a wreck on I-84 east bound, I got stuck in some really nasty traffic but I was still on the clock so it was OK. While in traffic this cute blond in the backseat of a car next to me yells out "Hey!" I had my window down and was listening to music. I Figured she was drunk or something so I just drove past, but then traffic slowed my lane and sped theirs and we were next to each other again. I looked over... heres the conversation we had.

CB: "Hey!"

Me: "What?"

CB: "What are you doing?"

Me: "Getting off work."

CB: "Where do you work?"

Me: "I work for the OLCC."

CB: "My friend in front of me thinks your cute, he really wants your number"

I look over

Me: "Thanks, but I dont eat on that side of the buffet"

CB: "What side is that?"

Me: "I dont eat meat."

At that point there was significant room ahead of me so I drove off. Thinking back on it, I should have given them my number and when he called me Id just tell him sorry but I was into his cute friend in the back seat. Oh well, Ill save that idea for next time.

I got my paper work turned in and headed to PSU for our Mithril team meeting. There is just something awesome about having a radio personality on the team that makes everything we do amazing.... except that now we have two.... making everything even more hilarious!

The drive coming back home was a lot of fun, I really slammed on the gas. I was feeling kind of daring in a sort of "well why the fuck not" sort of way so I drove the majority of the way home using only my peripheral vision while focusing almost entirely on my rear view mirror. Terrible idea btw... but it was fun, so why the fuck not?

Fin

EDIT: Forgot to mention that at the team meeting I was officially declared the Team Medic AND the Team Gestapo.

A small step back

I saw some workers putting up the Christmas tree in the square today.

Im so tired of spending the holidays alone. Im so tired of going to get togethers of friends because I dont want to deal with my family. Even at friends get togethers Im surrounded by couples or married people. Its just thrown in my face every year.

Just once, I want to have someone to hold for Christmas. Thats the only Christmas gift I want.

:*(

ZOMBIES!!

So the zombie game at the CAGE was pretty much exactly what I needed. I got to chill with some cool people, shoot some people, get shot, watch zombie movies on a huge HD projector. Unfortunately I was not able to go on the zombie hunt as the team was already running with 6 people and it was a 5 man event. That being said, I did get some sexy eyes from the hotness running the beer garden. She had the sexiest legs Ive ever seen.

Had a good time chilling with MITHRIL and some new people. Al Goodrich showed up with Tam. Hes getting really into it, I always knew its something he would enjoy. Nelson from 105.1 the buzz showed up with Chainsaw. Apparently we've got the hookup with Nelson now. Fun times all around! Next up is Operation Mjat!

Awwe

Cute blond girl has a boyfriend : \

Oh well, friends is fine too.

People

Ive decided that I dont want to have classes so close together ever again.
Theres a few people in some of my classes that I really want to get to know better, but because I only have 10 minutes between classes I dont get time to really hang out after class. I want to get to know blond girl, the two brunette girls, and long haired guy better. They all seem like really cool people. Seems like I wont really get the chance this term. If Im lucky Ill get more face time with them during classes.

Awesome quote

"Human beings do not live forever, Reuven. We live less than the time it takes to blink an eye, if we measure our lives against eternity. So it may be asked what value is there to a human life. There is so much pain in the world. What does it mean to have to suffer so much if our lives are nothing more than the blink of an eye?

I learned a long time ago, Reuven, that a blink of an eye in itself is nothing. But the eye that blinks, that is something. A span of life is nothing. But the man who lives that span, he is something. He can fill that tiny span with meaning, so its quality is immeasurable though its quantity may be insignificant. Do you understand what I am saying? A man must fill his life with meaning, meaning is not automatically given to life.

It is hard work to fill one's life with meaning. That I do not think you understand yet. A life filled with meaning is worthy of rest. I want to be worthy of rest when I am no longer here."

-Chaim Potok

Strange day

I got up in plenty of time, got a shower in, got down to PSU, and the first thing I do is run into Shoshanna. The first thing I noticed was how good she looked, the second was after we talked for a bit how much more mature she seemed. She has a new boyfriend which is a good step from James. I guess the last 6 months have changed her some. I think just us talking like old friends made her start to question some things. Im not really sure everything that went through her head but I think we'll be able to be friends again :)

Class was a bit strange too, the entire time I was getting googly eyes from the cute blond girl that sits next to me and the brunette kept dodging glances. Last night at Godfathers the girl behind the counter couldnt keep her eyes off me. Its wierd, but I feel really good recently. Apparently Im a sexy beast.

Scattered

Ive felt really very scattered lately. I have homework to do but I feel like I should go spend time with my friends. Ive been spending tons of time with them. Maybe too much. Im not focused at all. Just this morning I woke up ready to just do homework and clean. I set all my books around me, got my laptop ready, made some tea... and instead spent two hours making up lore for a single aspect/possible outcome for my adventurers in my d&d campaign on Tuesdays. I finished it at least up to a point where I was willing to stop. Ive got some other cool background stuff in mind... Point is I cant seem to focus on doing my homework. Its like my head is all scrambled up.

EDIT:
Check out what I wrote up in my Adventure Theater blog.

Sleeping in Jeans is always a bad idea

So I slept over at Sams last night because we were drinking and playing munchkin. Alex asked if I could give her a ride to PSU in the morning since we both had class starting at 10. She was going to wake up at 6 to work on a paper, so I asked her to wake me up at 8 if I had not already woken up to make sure we got out the door on time.

This morning I woke up to alex poking me once in the leg, saying "hey dave, wake up" then scurring off upstairs... I thought to myself, "thats the strangest wake up call Ive ever had" people dont normally poke you once then run off. Im used to a pillow in the face and hey! Wake Up! Several times. As I was pondering this I sat up and looked down... I had morning wood... god damnit.

My first memory of her

My first memory of you wasnt the first time we met but it eclipsed everything before it. We went to see Star Trek with my friends. The two of us sat on 1.5 seats, close to the speakers. With every explosion we nudged closer. Eventually your head was on my shoulder, my head leaned on yours and we started holding hands while Spock said "Let go of logic, have faith.". Good Times.

Fun night

Ran into Alex and Matt down at HQ tonight. Ended up going Jubitz, but the kitchen was closed so we went to shari's. Spent several hours there just hanging out and having fun. Class in the morning. Time to sleep now.

Dream 10-7-09

Had a dream about Charlotte last night.
We were all in a house I dont recognize but it was my house in the dream. She was talking to a bunch of my friends. She and I got into an argument. I opened the front door, grabbed her by her coat and threw her out with one hand. It was raining out. She started crying and ran to a broken down looking blue van thing. I got my coat and ran after her and told her to come back home and but she just cried and ran.

Im not really sure what to make of this, I feel like its more about her than me. Like I represent something she is running away from.

Sinking

Ive been slowly sinking, Im paddling my little boat upstream. Im no quitter. But Im up against a strong current with a leaky boat. Ill keep on going, thats just my nature.

Wrong Planet

Turns out what I thought was Venus... its Jupiter

Hints from Venus

I wasnt initially going to mention this because I didnt want to think about other girls in my future.
In my dream that I posted from Friday/Saturday night I was running around the afor mentioned reocurring location with a large group of girls. I was the only guy among them. We were all laughing and having fun. At the end of the dream I was walking next to a girl with dark hair, she wasnt part of the pack of girls before. She looked familiar but I couldnt really place her. We walked away, just the two of us. She took my hand with one of her fingers and we were in love.

Now I usually have prophetic dreams about people that will have a profound impact on my life. The universe sends me hints this way. Ive had dreams with zaamen, tam, ally, priscilla, shoshana and charlotte all before I met them.

Now I wonder who this girl is going to be. I guess she and I will come together after running around with a bunch of other girls. I hate to think of myself that way, but Im not surprised if thats how things end up.

Now for the probably pointless/hopeful drawing of strange conclusions. The very next day Charlotte dyed her hair black. At least for right now, I really hope that she was the girl in the dream and that she is familiar but I couldnt place her because she will have discovered who she is and changed into the different person she wants to be by then. Who knows. Maybe its someone much better suited for me. I guess Ill have to wait and see.

Epic day is Epic

Today was an epic day, but not really for any reason.
I got up and went to salem. Did my job and got home. I was going to go to sams and rework my warlock. But apparently no one else was answering their phone so alex had to cancel it.
That was a bummer. When I came home sean and I played R6V2. Made some strong headway, I think we will beat it soon. After that we got some taco bell, watched the pilot to Curb your enthusiasm (hilarious). At that point I had to decide whether I was going to go back to salem tonight or wait till tomorrow. I chose to wait till tomorrow, but in the mean time I still had to drive my paperwork to HQ. On the way I felt really strange. I must have had a large adrenaline dump. I dont know. But the moment I started driving I felt like I wanted to do something wild and fun. I wanted to go sky diving, bunji jumping. Ive been so surrounded by my thoughts and by serious conversation that I just had an immense urge to go have fun. I wanted to socialize, I wanted to meet people. On the way back I was just driving around for fun. I sped up and slowed down to look at people in their cars. At one point a car of about 4 girls all started cheering and whistling at me, which was really wierd because I wasnt doing anything at all. I think maybe they thought I was someone else. Either way it felt good to just get out of the apartment and enjoy myself. I really want to get a bunch of people together and just enjoy ourselves. Hot tubbing is definitely in order.

Once I got back home sean and I watched the first episode of this season's ultimate fighter. It was much better than I expected and Im looking forward to more episodes. After that I checked my email while sean was setting up Western Django Sukiyaki (a fucking awesome movie) I noticed Charlotte was on and I was going to start chatting with her but the movie started. I hoped she'd be on when I got back. Unfortunately she wasnt. Oh well. Another time I suppose.

Now its late and Im trying to get some sleep.

late night

Just finished watching when harry met sally again.
Its late and Ive got a busy day tomorrow. Ive got to be up early. I should go to bed. After watching the movie I just feel really lonely. I miss Charlotte, it'll be two weeks since I saw her last this Monday. We used to not go more than four days without seeing each other. I really miss her little snort when she laughed hard. I just want school to start back up so I can really dive into something. It kind of figures that now that my work schedule has died down to very little I dont have anyone to spend the time with. Oh well, here's to trying to get some sleep tonight.

Its not me

Im not normally the kind of guy to even think something like this....
But god damn... I need a good fuck. Just good, no strings attached, wild sex.
I almost feel like checking out one of those adult friend finder sites. I know its a really bad idea, and thats just not me... but Im going to ravage the next piece of ass I get.

Im just really sexually frustrated right now

A place for my dreams

Every now an again I have a dream, usually the dreams I actually remember are prophetic.
I had a dream last night. It was a strange dream. Its not one of my reoccuring dreams yet it was in a reocuring place. In the country somewhere, with a barn and house with a lot of strange passageways winding around, up and down a room divided by sheets. Its kind of strange but not scary at all, kind of like a fun house.

In other news, Venus has been viewable almost every night for several days, I never used to stop and notice how long she stayed around in September.

Wake me up when september ends

This month has just been kind of shitty.
Its been mostly trying to deal with Charlotte breaking up with me
Trying to deal with Tony's death
Almost dieing myself
Dealing with Smokey dieing.
Im starting to wonder what is going to happen next week.

The Good, The Bad and the Ugly

I have never dealt with break ups well. When dealing with Charlotte breaking up with me I have had moments when I dealt with it really well, and moments when I just lose that strength. But I have never even had the stronger moments before. This is something Ive been thinking about lately. Charlotte more than anyone else ever, has seen the good the bad and the ugly in me now. And its that ugly bad at breakups part of me that I most need to change. It will be the biggest personal growth for me, and it is now going to be my focus.

Heres to you Tony Touch

Heres to you Tony Touch
This one goes out to you
And to every man who just wants to be free
For every man with the same spirit of tonys
For unguarded smiles
For flying off into the distance
For always knowing WHO YOU ARE
For always BEING WHO YOU ARE
For always LOVING WHO YOU ARE
For calling the world on its bullshit
For telling others you dont give a fuck
For living in a world undeserving of your honesty
For living in a world undeserving of your heart
For living in a world undeserving of your soul
Heres to the freedom of the open road
Heres to the freedom of the open sky
Heres to you Tony
My Friend
This one goes out to you
May I find you again in another life

Here Here

Done

Im so very done with this

This Bed

Im so lonely, I feel so alone right now. More than anything I want her to be here. I want to reach over and feel her hand in mine. I want to feel her heartbeat against my chest. I want to look into her eyes and know that she's there, that she loves me.

The ice cream didnt help, I cant sleep. I want to get in my car and drive away. Just disappear for a while.

Fly

I love my car
I love my job
I love being on the job late at night, listening to music and driving on an open road.
My car is my freedom, I can at a moments notice drive across town to see my sister and brother in law who are suddenly at my parents house.
Sometimes when Im driving I feel like my car could sprout wings and fly. Its my happy thoughts, my pixie dust, it takes me away to never never land.

Midnight Show

I know what you want
I gonna take you a midnight show tonight
If you can keep a secret
I got a blanket in the back seat on my mind
And a little place that sits beneath the sky
She turned her face to speak
But no-one heard her cry
Drive faster, boy
Drive faster, boy

I know there's a hope
There's too many people trying to help me cope
You got a real short skirt
I wanna look up, look up, look up, yeah yeah

We were just in time
Let me take a little more off your mind
There's something in my head
Somewhere in the back said
We were just a good thing
We were such a good thing

Make it go away without a word
But promise me you'll stay
And fix these things I've hurt
Oh make it go away!

Drive faster, boy

The crashing tide can hide a guilty girl
With jealous hearts that start with gloss and curls
I took my baby's breath beneath the chandelier
Of stars and atmosphere
And watched her disappear
Into the midnight show

faster, faster, faster, faster, faster, faster
no no no no no no no no no no no no

If you keep a secret
Well baby I can keep
Baby, keep a secret

(She said she loved me)

If you keep a secret,
I can keep a secret

(She said she loved me)

If you can keep a secret
Well baby I can keep,
Baby keep a secret

_______________________

Why is it that two people who love each other arent together? I love her, she loves me. Why isnt that enough?

Shes going on a date with Marc on what would have been our 4 month anniversary, only two weeks after we broke up. :(

One of those days

Its been one of those days where so much has happened and Ive had so many variable random thoughts that I just cant possibly put them all down, let alone think about Kcon. With the day behind me all thats left is the night. Charlotte hasnt been reachable at all. Im worried. Its going to be one of those nights.

Kcon, more later

I can still feel her kiss vibrating on my lips. More on Kcon later after D&D.

Best Night In a Long Time!

It all started with Tam picking me up. We went downtown to reg for kcon. While there I saw the hot yojimbo, Im glad shes there again this year. Last year me and Duc just kind of chatted her up a bunch while she stood guarding one of the adult panels. Ive always planned on joining the yojimbo once I didnt have anyone to go to the con with. That might be next year, we'll see.

As we left the con space, swag bags in tow, we decided to call up Jenell and her friend Steve to go to dinner. As we left Tams house to find dinner Tam and I were horsing around a bit, just a little slowmo kungfu. He punched me pretty solidly on the right side of my chest. I didnt budge. It didnt hurt at all. In fact my chest blew out his shoulder. He was nursing it the rest of the night, thats what happens when you punch someone built like a Tank! XD

Originally we were going to go to Toshi's but they were full and we didnt want to wait. Thus we decided to head down to the Macaroni Grill. Dinner was very eventful, the kind of dinner conversation I cant get from anyone but tam and jenell's gang. I really miss hanging with them. Our waiter was a bit odd. He really seemed to like me, what with standing really close to me and puting his hand on my neck down the back of my shirt. Id say it was creepy but he was a really charismatic, handsome black guy. Too bad for him Im not into guys.

After dinner we dropped off steve. Tam, Jenell and I stayed around watching TV for a bit. I got bored and tired so I asked Tam to take me home. On the way home he said hes never taken german town road in his new Lancer. I said... "Lets do it". We spent the next hour driving Germantown Rd and Skyline Rd in the dark, in the rain, with the windows down.... between 60 and 85 mph... around 25 to 35 recommended mph turns. Holy shit his Lancer can take turns. It was such an adrenaline rush. I needed that so bad, Ive missed out on airsoft for a good two months and this was just what the doctored prescribed. It was thrilling, scary, and so much fun. There were several times when if not for my seat belt and "Oh Shit Handle" I would have been tossed out the passenger window. Initial D stuff. We are definitely going to have to find some less populated roads and do it again sometime.

With our eyes still watering and hand still numb from the oh shit handle we headed home. Talked to sean a bit and now its the waiting game. At some point Charlottes going to give me a call to come pick her up. Then more waiting, early wake up, more waiting, and con time.

Tam and I have decided we are going to do everything in our power to make this con the most enjoyable con experience for us ever.

Here comes the weekend....

A little green

This is probably bad to say, but I kind of like it when she gets jealous. It shows me that she really does still care on some level.

My Second Mistake

After some thinking Ive discovered what my second mistake was with my relationship with Charlotte. I wish I could go back and change it, but I cant be the one to undo it, that would require her.

Its funny... people like me wait to get into relationships. We dont go from person to person willy nilly. We spend most of our time single. And when we do finally find someone we connect with, someone we can really love and let that really take hold of us. We make mistakes. We make mistakes that a more experienced person wouldnt make. We make mistakes that when we go back and think about it, we say "Really? I did that? What the fuck was I thinking?!". We make mistakes on the relationships that really count, the ones that we really want to see go far, and we pay for that inexperience, for our self-righteousness. We burn ourselves.

I believe I now know largely what caused her love to wain. And its all my fault.
Ive made my mistake, I wont ever make it again. I played myself the fool again.

Intense Meditation

This morning I had a very intense meditative experience.
-I started off with 50 situps and 25 pushups.
-Showered
-Did my usual breathing exercises to uttara-kuru
Heres where it got weird...
While I was focusing on taking in energy and moving it through my lungs I got a huge burst of Charlotte. This is strange because she has not been here in a week.
It was her smell but more than that, it was her energy. Her essence.
-From there I went on to my usual falun dafa techniques
-Into my "tai chi" (Ive never taken tai chi, its just what Ive developed myself as my own form of it)
It was here I thought about something... Ive done lots of channeling energy from one part of myself to another, lots of experiments with breathing and feeling and all kinds of different energy manipulation.... but never what Charlotte did for me when I was feeling very sore that one night.
-I absorbed energy with one hand and let it flow through my body out the other hand. It was so much different than my usual style. Maybe this is a more "fire" approach? From there I thought... huh... well why not try something I saw once in a cartoon?
-For those of you who have seen Avatar you should know the lighting redirection technique that Uncle Iroh uses. I tried that only without actual lightning... just regular energy.
-It was hard to do at first because there was energy around me but it was smooth flowing energy, I didnt have someone to "shoot" it at me. So I gathered all the energy I could in a short matter of seconds in one hand, crossed it through my body and fired it out the other hand. Needless to say of course no flashy blue energy blast came out. Its not DBZ Im talking here. But it was like a lake overflowing and bursting through a dam. It hurt... a lot afterwards.

I feel fairly drained but overall I feel good, thats what meditation really does for me. I love the feel of opening up the third eye chakra. Its been a long time since Ive been able to open up the crown or above, and even longer since Ive been able to connect meridian lines and activate several at the same time. But I have a personal goal now. Im really going to get into experimenting with my energy and develop myself before I take ballroom dancing and tai chi next term. Im going to get into shape and really be at the top of my game.

Today was a good day

I woke up and spent some time chatting with Sean.
I got sean, tam, jenell and I to go see Inglorious basterds. Great Movie. It was the first Quentin Tarantino movie Ive ever seen in theaters. It very well may have been his masterpiece. POILER ALERT***Quentin is the only director so full of himself that he would kill hitler in a movie.***End SPOILER!!

Afterwards we went to five guys. I wasnt sure about the place at first. You walk in and there is a huge box of peanuts. Its there for something to munch on while you wait in line, people are actually encouraged to throw the shells on the ground. When you order a burger its plain, you have to order any condiments or other bits that you want. For example I got a Bacon Cheeseburger and had them add Grilled Mushrooms, Grilled onions, BBQ sauce, Ketchup, and jalepenios. Their schtick is that it costs nothing extra for all the toppings you want to add. Ultimately the place prooved itself to me when Journey came on over the speakers. Move over Mikes Drive In, Five Guys is the new Burger Master in Town.

After that we went and got Bubble Bubble while Tam narrated Dead by Dawn followed by me and Tam both reliving our favorite experiences from Nephilim II. We spent the evening chatting and laughing and people watching. My favorite thing about Bubble Bubble here in beaverton is all the fine Asian girls it always seems to attract.

Best night Ive had in a while. Tam and Jenell always make for great socially awkward discussion. At one point at Five guys we just made a huge run of sexually charged jokes building off each other, the next one worse than the last.

I dont get to hang with Tam and Jenell enough. Sean gives me hell for it sometimes since they are older than me but I feel more at home with them then most my other friends. Tam and Jennel just dont care what they say, everything is so fun with them. Heh, jennel tried convincing me to hook up with her 16 year old niece because she also just broke up with her boyfriend. Eh... stephanie is cute but Im not even going to consider stepping there until shes several years older and several years more mature.

Next up tonight? Pick items and wait for charlotte to get online to figure out when Im picking her up.

A letter to my parents

Hey

So I just thought I should give you guys the heads up.
Charlotte and I broke up. She needs to go and find herself
something she "can only do if she's single". I still love her.
To answer your question mom, yes I did plan on marrying her.
I guess I thought that was evident by her being the first girl friend
I ever introduced to my family.

There's a small chance that she and I could end up back together.
I cant really stop my world for that small chance. I dont really want
to talk about it right now so please respect my request and dont
ask me tons of questions about it right now. Wait until my heart
has healed.

She and I are going to still be friends I suppose. She seems to want
that more than I do but if that doesnt work out either then thats the way
its going to be.

There will most likely be other girls in my future and when I bring one
home to introduce you to know that I love her and there will be no reason
to compare her to Charlotte or Allyson.

Dave

Single

So Charlotte and I have sort of split up. She is going to be single for a while to better discover herself. We have decided to step it back to just dating, not being actually officially boyfriend/girlfriend. I want to believe that she and I will be back together when she discovers herself but I cant shake the feeling that this is just a slow letdown till she finds herself and goes to someone else. She says that she still loves me, I know I still love her, but Im fighting that numbing feeling. Last night and at the end of our double date today were the first time Ive felt anything from her kiss and "I love you's" in some time. Maybe thats a sign that she's moving back in my direction. Im worried, Im scared, Im trying to be confident, Im trying to be secure in knowing that she and I will be together again, but I cant feel that way when I always feel like she doesnt want things to end up that way. Im sad. Its raining out. I need a distraction.


I want my girl back. < /3

Charlotte

I woke up hugging my/her pillow. It still smells like her, I clutched it feeling for her heartbeat but I felt only my own. My bed isnt right with out her there. I need so very much to hold her in my arms right now. I need her. I love her.

Heartstrings

For the last few days my heart has been feeling its strings tugged on. Ive never missed anyone so much. And now that I will get to see her tomorrow I feel like my heart is being pulled in her direction. Every minute that goes by is another small step towards seeing her again. I cant wait <3

People who hate people

On the subject of people who hate other people for various reasons.

S: In 50 years people will look back on all this hatred towards gay people the same way they look at the racism of the 60s.
Me: Yeah probably.
S: Do you think people will ever run out of reasons to hate each other?
Me: No, people will make up new reasons to hate each other. By 2030 people will hate other people for wearing black on Tuesdays.
S: If that becomes a reality Ill kill myself.

We had a good laugh. Sometimes that's the best thing to do when analyzing humanity.

Dream 8-25-09

I fell asleep today around 3 or 4 oclock.
In my dream a woman appears and toss a paper plane at me. I catch it but its not a paper plane. Its a paper bird (origami) with a long wavy tail. The bird looks like a phoenix. The woman says "everything's going to be alright" Then I woke up.

I dont know if a dream like this is a prophetic message from the universe or my subconscious projecting what it wants.

A thorn by any other name

In medieval times guards were placed on the roads to protect the people from thieves, now the guards have become the thieves.

Its never enough

I pick her up from work but then I have to work.
I have her all Monday but we have D&D at 6:30 and she wont wake up before noon. If we dont get up and involve Sean in something then we are ignoring him and being bad friends.
Then I wake up early to drop her off to go see her friends.

We only get to have time alone together for about 4 hours A WEEK and we spend that time watching Buffy. Its not enough. God... its just never enough. :(

My mind has gone to bad places

I dont know what it is. Im worried. Im scared. Im afraid. My mind has gone to bad places tonight. Please, Please dont let it be.

To cali and back

I went down to california for my grandfathers 87th birthday. We drove down. Spent one night in brookings, then three nights in Windsor, one night in santa rosa, back up to brookings and back home. The trip was pretty freaking awesome because I got to bring my girlfriend with me and all of my aunts, uncles, cousins and grandfolk absolutely love her. My whole family loves her too. They always tell me what a good couple we make. She's the first girl Ive actually introduced to my family as my girlfriend. Ive had several other girlfriends and interests but none that I had ever actually told my parents about. I feel good about my relationship with charlotte. We need to find more time to spend together but besides that everything is really great :)

My love

The last few weeks have been amazing.
I love the way she leans on me. I love that I can stare into her eyes and see her soul reaching out to me and I feel my own reaching to hers. Its like we love on another level. I love embracing her and feeling that loving energy between our lips. We are so perfect together. There are no words in the human tongue that can describe what she means to me. I cant believe that I am so lucky to find her in this life.

Latte

wow, what a night...
I didnt expect anything to happen...
I was pleasantly surprised
But as has been the trend... she has a boyfriend...
Everything feels so right...
She is everything I could ask for in a girl
Everything seems so perfect
Its kind of silly, but I feel like we even got Lenard Nimoy's blessing.
What could be more perfect for two nerds?
"Put aside logic, have faith" for this... I would have faith and jump in feet first
I have a really good feeling about this
On a probably unrelated note, tonight was the brightest moon and clearest night sky I have see this year.

sleepy time nao

well fuck me, right?

I blasted cops during mentor session, she sent me this on facebook...

you know... if cops are dicks... and james is so much better than you in so many ways... what does that make you?

I hate you so much right now and I don't even feel bad anymore...


My Response...

James is so much better than me? Then why doesnt he hug you the way I do? Why doesnt he have the passion I do? Why doesnt he cuddle with you with a fire in his heart.
You think hes better than me? Thats a laugh. He aspires to be a cop, an enforcer that destroys the lives of the poor and looks the other way when the rich actually do something corrupt. Maybe thats not what the cops are like in israel but thats what they are here. Odds are he will only make what? 30-40k a year as a traffic cop. What am I to that? Im going to be a teacher who helps kids in high school so that they dont end up angry and alone. Im going to be a supporting arm, someone who lifts people up. My profession may not have the glamor of "COP" that you seem to be so infatuated with but at least I am going to be out there helping people. And when I end up as a university professor Ill be making 80-100k.
Want to keep comparing?
And you hate me why? What was your reason? Because you wish james was more like me. Thats what you said.

Really? You hate me? HATE? Are you that bitter? Can you really hate someone that loves you the way I do? Can you really let yourself be so overcome with hatred for someone that loves you that you dont feel bad about the way you treat me? You have no right, nor reason to hate me. You've completely betrayed yourself if this is really how you feel. When you calm down let me know. I still care about you, Im still your friend. Next time you are so pissed, talk to me, dont shit on a message and shove it in my face.

meth

While out working tonight I saw something really sad.
I drove up to the store, noticed the associate was outside with two friends talking. On my way in I noticed the friends kept their faces away from me as I passed them.
I went through all the motions till I came to the associate. I realized what was wrong with her friends and her. They were all meth heads. This particular girl is what was really sad.
She "was" beautiful. I could tell by looking at her face, her skin and her eyes. But now her teeth had rotted, her fingers and hands had swollen and were discolored, she was malnourished too.

I hate to see people fall into something so terrible, sometimes all you can do is shake your head, say its a shame and wonder what happened that took her to this place in life.

le sigh

so heres the latest text message

"I want you out of my life."

Well fuck... Ive been kicked out of two girls lives in the last year, thats got to be some kind of record. Id say Im the victim of immature girls but that might just be me trying to pass some of the blame. I definitely put myself into these situations.

...she was the hottest brunette Ive ever been with...
Im not really that shallow, I just tend to laugh things off, this will probably hit me harder in a day or two...

FUUUUUUUCKkkkkkkkkkk

why do I always fall for girls that dont love me...
For the first time in my life I am actually questioning whether its possible for someone to love me.
I feel so torn inside. Why when I am given the choice of the girl or being an honorable man do I always take the honorable side? Fuck me.

:(

I think I love her

Ive got it bad

Since that day my thoughts keep finding their way to her...
My arms yearn to hold her again...
I want to passionately embrace her lips with mine, but these are just my feelings. My head tells me no. Its wrong, I know it is. My conscience is struggling with how I feel and what I know to be true... This feeling will pass, its just a bitch in the mean time.

D'OH!

...you know... I saw this coming months ago... I tried to stop it, I cant even remember how it happened. I should have been able to stop it, I was not strong enough this time. This was one of those things where all signs say use your head. It wasnt even someone else trying to tell me, I was trying to tell myself. But of course I went and fucked up... well you live and learn... Ive learned that common sense is easy to pass to the wind when ones emotions are involved. When I see it happen in the future to me or someone else I will try to be stronger but also accepting of how hard it is to ignore for those who have not yet learned this lesson.

Origin - Spirits of the Past

I dont know how this movie was able to stay under the radar. Its an anime that crosses final fantasy with miyazaki films. It really was an incredible watch and it just showed up on hulu. Free to watch. I love the internet. I never would have heard of this movie without it.

IMDB TOP250

Ive decided I want to watch all the films on IMDBs top 250 films list. Some of these I have watched recently... others its been a while, some not at all. I dont really aspire to be a film critic or anything but I want to see these anyway.

Rank	Rating	Title	Votes
1.	9.1	The Shawshank Redemption (1994)	413,225
2.	9.1	The Godfather (1972)	344,826
3.	9.0	The Godfather: Part II (1974)	199,626
4.	8.9	Buono, il brutto, il cattivo., Il (1966)	121,075
5.	8.9	Pulp Fiction (1994)	339,956
6.	8.9	The Dark Knight (2008)	354,743
7.	8.8	Schindler's List (1993)	225,403
8.	8.8	One Flew Over the Cuckoo's Nest (1975)	172,910
9.	8.8	12 Angry Men (1957)	87,397
10.	8.8	Star Wars: Episode V - The Empire Strikes Back (1980)	233,671
11.	8.8	Casablanca (1942)	142,299
12.	8.8	Star Wars (1977)	275,509
13.	8.8	Shichinin no samurai (1954)	80,834
14.	8.8	The Lord of the Rings: The Return of the King (2003)	299,928
15.	8.7	Goodfellas (1990)	186,737
16.	8.7	Rear Window (1954)	97,556
17.	8.7	Cidade de Deus (2002)	128,638
18.	8.7	Raiders of the Lost Ark (1981)	208,432
19.	8.7	C'era una volta il West (1968)	57,575
20.	8.7	The Lord of the Rings: The Fellowship of the Ring (2001)	328,010
21.	8.7	Fight Club (1999)	308,044
22.	8.7	The Usual Suspects (1995)	225,371
23.	8.7	Psycho (1960)	118,184
24.	8.6	The Silence of the Lambs (1991)	202,835
25.	8.6	Sunset Blvd. (1950)	43,398
26.	8.6	Dr. Strangelove or: How I Learned to Stop Worrying and Love the Bomb (1964)	133,452
27.	8.6	Memento (2000)	221,819
28.	8.6	North by Northwest (1959)	77,607
29.	8.6	The Matrix (1999)	316,241
30.	8.6	Citizen Kane (1941)	119,427
31.	8.6	It's a Wonderful Life (1946)	85,873
32.	8.6	The Lord of the Rings: The Two Towers (2002)	273,856
33.	8.6	Se7en (1995)	225,390
34.	8.6	Léon (1994)	158,165
35.	8.5	Apocalypse Now (1979)	145,358
36.	8.5	American Beauty (1999)	246,178
37.	8.5	Taxi Driver (1976)	125,667
38.	8.5	Lawrence of Arabia (1962)	67,406
39.	8.5	American History X (1998)	179,643
40.	8.5	WALL·E (2008)	123,439
41.	8.5	Vertigo (1958)	75,695
42.	8.5	Slumdog Millionaire (2008)	93,860
43.	8.5	Paths of Glory (1957)	36,109
44.	8.5	Forrest Gump (1994)	240,860
45.	8.5	Fabuleux destin d'Amélie Poulain, Le (2001)	147,523
46.	8.5	M (1931)	32,231
47.	8.5	Double Indemnity (1944)	29,591
48.	8.5	To Kill a Mockingbird (1962)	69,389
49.	8.5	Alien (1979)	147,688
50.	8.5	The Departed (2006)	207,406
51.	8.5	A Clockwork Orange (1971)	159,393
52.	8.5	The Treasure of the Sierra Madre (1948)	26,860
53.	8.5	Das Leben der Anderen (2006)	52,986
54.	8.5	The Third Man (1949)	42,221
55.	8.5	The Shining (1980)	142,858
56.	8.4	The Pianist (2002)	103,513
57.	8.4	Chinatown (1974)	64,242
58.	8.4	Saving Private Ryan (1998)	225,016
59.	8.4	Eternal Sunshine of the Spotless Mind (2004)	177,080
60.	8.4	Sen to Chihiro no kamikakushi (2001)	78,944
61.	8.4	Terminator 2: Judgment Day (1991)	187,729
62.	8.4	Monty Python and the Holy Grail (1975)	133,029
63.	8.4	Requiem for a Dream (2000)	147,447
64.	8.4	L.A. Confidential (1997)	141,135
65.	8.4	Aliens (1986)	140,214
66.	8.4	Das Boot (1981)	59,604
67.	8.4	The Bridge on the River Kwai (1957)	49,290
68.	8.4	City Lights (1931)	20,973
69.	8.4	Laberinto del fauno, El (2006)	119,519
70.	8.4	Reservoir Dogs (1992)	173,953
71.	8.4	The Wrestler (2008)	40,778
72.	8.4	Rashômon (1950)	31,391
73.	8.4	Raging Bull (1980)	73,571
74.	8.4	The Maltese Falcon (1941)	43,157
75.	8.4	All About Eve (1950)	29,241
76.	8.4	Modern Times (1936)	28,145
77.	8.3	Singin' in the Rain (1952)	45,924
78.	8.3	Der Untergang (2004)	63,195
79.	8.3	Metropolis (1927)	31,628
80.	8.3	Gran Torino (2008)	45,740
81.	8.3	Rebecca (1940)	28,817
82.	8.3	Some Like It Hot (1959)	55,651
83.	8.3	The Prestige (2006)	153,936
84.	8.3	Amadeus (1984)	80,558
85.	8.3	The Elephant Man (1980)	46,430
86.	8.3	Vita è bella, La (1997)	87,675
87.	8.3	2001: A Space Odyssey (1968)	134,070
88.	8.3	Nuovo cinema Paradiso (1988)	36,207
89.	8.3	The Apartment (1960)	29,037
90.	8.3	The Great Escape (1963)	50,835
91.	8.3	Sin City (2005)	208,477
92.	8.3	The Great Dictator (1940)	29,136
93.	8.3	Once Upon a Time in America (1984)	57,756
94.	8.3	Full Metal Jacket (1987)	122,931
95.	8.3	The Sting (1973)	54,511
96.	8.3	Touch of Evil (1958)	26,778
97.	8.3	Mr. Smith Goes to Washington (1939)	27,537
98.	8.3	Ladri di biciclette (1948)	20,915
99.	8.3	On the Waterfront (1954)	33,402
100.	8.3	Sjunde inseglet, Det (1957)	29,144
101.	8.3	Back to the Future (1985)	163,769
102.	8.3	Hotel Rwanda (2004)	73,227
103.	8.3	No Country for Old Men (2007)	154,241
104.	8.3	Braveheart (1995)	202,259
105.	8.3	Batman Begins (2005)	223,294
106.	8.3	Jaws (1975)	114,774
107.	8.3	Indiana Jones and the Last Crusade (1989)	145,952
108.	8.3	Strangers on a Train (1951)	27,405
109.	8.3	Blade Runner (1982)	155,982
110.	8.3	Star Wars: Episode VI - Return of the Jedi (1983)	179,423
111.	8.3	Unforgiven (1992)	78,239
112.	8.2	The Manchurian Candidate (1962)	29,728
113.	8.2	The Green Mile (1999)	158,192
114.	8.2	Notorious (1946)	25,573
115.	8.2	High Noon (1952)	28,237
116.	8.2	The Big Sleep (1946)	23,893
117.	8.2	Oldboy (2003)	72,335
118.	8.2	Gladiator (2000)	227,822
119.	8.2	There Will Be Blood (2007)	99,902
120.	8.2	Fargo (1996)	139,152
121.	8.2	Per qualche dollaro in più (1965)	32,808
122.	8.2	Cool Hand Luke (1967)	36,832
123.	8.2	The Wizard of Oz (1939)	86,027
124.	8.2	Die Hard (1988)	149,231
125.	8.2	Mononoke-hime (1997)	52,703
126.	8.2	Donnie Darko (2001)	170,695
127.	8.2	The General (1927)	16,040
128.	8.2	Yojimbo (1961)	23,692
129.	8.2	Ran (1985)	28,538
130.	8.2	Smultronstället (1957)	16,610
131.	8.2	Witness for the Prosecution (1957)	13,998
132.	8.2	It Happened One Night (1934)	19,918
133.	8.2	Annie Hall (1977)	53,276
134.	8.2	Kind Hearts and Coronets (1949)	10,239
135.	8.2	Heat (1995)	117,920
136.	8.2	Kill Bill: Vol. 1 (2003)	188,912
137.	8.2	Salaire de la peur, Le (1953)	10,858
138.	8.2	The Deer Hunter (1978)	72,032
139.	8.2	The Sixth Sense (1999)	202,892
140.	8.2	Into the Wild (2007)	63,822
141.	8.2	Platoon (1986)	89,848
142.	8.2	Ben-Hur (1959)	48,175
143.	8.2	Notti di Cabiria, Le (1957)	8,393
144.	8.2	Million Dollar Baby (2004)	111,000
145.	8.1	The Curious Case of Benjamin Button (2008)	75,569
146.	8.1	The Bourne Ultimatum (2007)	113,298
147.	8.1	Judgment at Nuremberg (1961)	10,922
148.	8.1	Diaboliques, Les (1955)	10,961
149.	8.1	Life of Brian (1979)	77,777
150.	8.1	Butch Cassidy and the Sundance Kid (1969)	47,557
151.	8.1	8½ (1963)	22,727
152.	8.1	The Big Lebowski (1998)	142,957
153.	8.1	Ratatouille (2007)	100,289
154.	8.1	The Grapes of Wrath (1940)	18,861
155.	8.1	The Killing (1956)	19,781
156.	8.1	Snatch. (2000)	136,390
157.	8.1	The Graduate (1967)	63,925
158.	8.1	Amores perros (2000)	49,168
159.	8.1	Finding Nemo (2003)	131,319
160.	8.1	The Night of the Hunter (1955)	19,976
161.	8.1	Stand by Me (1986)	73,841
162.	8.1	Dog Day Afternoon (1975)	47,043
163.	8.1	The Gold Rush (1925)	16,586
164.	8.1	Brief Encounter (1945)	10,326
165.	8.1	Gandhi (1982)	40,859
166.	8.1	Gone with the Wind (1939)	64,093
167.	8.1	The Wild Bunch (1969)	25,389
168.	8.1	Trainspotting (1996)	123,838
169.	8.1	V for Vendetta (2005)	176,312
170.	8.1	Scarface (1983)	121,216
171.	8.1	The Lion King (1994)	104,868
172.	8.1	The Thing (1982)	60,579
173.	8.1	The Princess Bride (1987)	107,698
174.	8.1	Groundhog Day (1993)	109,250
175.	8.1	Harvey (1950)	19,020
176.	8.1	Shadow of a Doubt (1943)	16,759
177.	8.1	The Incredibles (2004)	127,786
178.	8.1	Toy Story (1995)	114,295
179.	8.1	Sleuth (1972)	13,539
180.	8.1	Umberto D. (1952)	6,625
181.	8.1	The Hustler (1961)	20,793
182.	8.1	Battaglia di Algeri, La (1966)	10,467
183.	8.1	The Terminator (1984)	141,614
184.	8.1	Children of Men (2006)	124,751
185.	8.1	Sunrise: A Song of Two Humans (1927)	8,552
186.	8.1	Twelve Monkeys (1995)	139,215
187.	8.0	The Ox-Bow Incident (1943)	7,053
188.	8.0	Låt den rätte komma in (2008)	17,391
189.	8.0	The Best Years of Our Lives (1946)	14,231
190.	8.0	The Kid (1921)	9,875
191.	8.0	Lock, Stock and Two Smoking Barrels (1998)	99,884
192.	8.0	The African Queen (1951)	28,602
193.	8.0	Duck Soup (1933)	21,949
194.	8.0	Letters from Iwo Jima (2006)	42,465
195.	8.0	Stalag 17 (1953)	17,070
196.	8.0	The Lady Vanishes (1938)	14,177
197.	8.0	The Conversation (1974)	26,141
198.	8.0	Hotaru no haka (1988)	26,355
199.	8.0	Casino (1995)	86,264
200.	8.0	The Adventures of Robin Hood (1938)	18,844
201.	8.0	In Bruges (2008)	60,401
202.	8.0	Dial M for Murder (1954)	23,027
203.	8.0	Watchmen (2009)	45,155
204.	8.0	King Kong (1933)	31,744
205.	8.0	Scaphandre et le papillon, Le (2007)	20,275
206.	8.0	Ed Wood (1994)	60,267
207.	8.0	Anatomy of a Murder (1959)	12,690
208.	8.0	All Quiet on the Western Front (1930)	17,302
209.	8.0	Crash (2004/I)	141,918
210.	8.0	The Exorcist (1973)	83,978
211.	8.0	A Streetcar Named Desire (1951)	26,905
212.	8.0	Rope (1948)	24,343
213.	8.0	The Lost Weekend (1945)	9,661
214.	8.0	Bonnie and Clyde (1967)	32,968
215.	8.0	The Day the Earth Stood Still (1951)	27,879
216.	8.0	Kill Bill: Vol. 2 (2004)	147,227
217.	8.0	Strada, La (1954)	13,850
218.	8.0	Rosemary's Baby (1968)	39,398
219.	8.0	Patton (1970)	32,792
220.	8.0	Who's Afraid of Virginia Woolf? (1966)	15,191
221.	8.0	His Girl Friday (1940)	16,808
222.	8.0	Safety Last! (1923)	3,953
223.	8.0	Frankenstein (1931)	18,872
224.	8.0	Wo hu cang long (2000)	94,399
225.	8.0	Sweet Smell of Success (1957)	6,984
226.	8.0	Changeling (2008)	28,955
227.	8.0	Nosferatu, eine Symphonie des Grauens (1922)	23,662
228.	8.0	Glory (1989)	47,750
229.	8.0	Network (1976)	25,680
230.	8.0	Little Miss Sunshine (2006)	119,575
231.	8.0	The Philadelphia Story (1940)	23,169
232.	8.0	Magnolia (1999)	103,475
233.	8.0	Manhattan (1979)	31,144
234.	8.0	Big Fish (2003)	110,511
235.	8.0	Roman Holiday (1953)	24,993
236.	8.0	Arsenic and Old Lace (1944)	24,770
237.	8.0	Mystic River (2003)	93,525
238.	8.0	Spartacus (1960)	41,375
239.	8.0	In the Heat of the Night (1967)	18,621
240.	8.0	Laura (1944)	11,365
241.	8.0	Dolce vita, La (1960)	15,798
242.	8.0	Rocky (1976)	73,267
243.	8.0	Great Expectations (1946)	7,798
244.	8.0	Good Will Hunting (1997)	120,139
245.	8.0	Barry Lyndon (1975)	31,993
246.	8.0	The Man Who Shot Liberty Valance (1962)	19,347
247.	8.0	Quatre cents coups, Les (1959)	18,179
248.	8.0	Harold and Maude (1971)	23,315
249.	8.0	Hauru no ugoku shiro (2004)	33,767
250.	8.0	Mou gaan dou (2002)	28,389